Break

I feel like taking a break. A break for my emotion.

Should I just take one day of MC or leave and just stay at home and do nothing?

I feel like being a student all over again.

I'm begining to hate myself. I feel like I'm always getting people into trouble. And I'm feeling super gulity about it.

My friends used to say I have this real bubbly personality; always a loud and cheerful person. What happen to me now?

Sorry! And thanks...

For giving in to me and my stupid nonsense.
For letting me win to all stupid arguments.
For knowing when I'm having a mood swing and cheer me up when I'm sad.
For listening me bitching about the people I hate.
For giving me advice in work and life.
For speaking up for me when the problem don't even involve you.
For entertaining me when I'm bored.

I really learnt lots of things from you. And I believe you are more than a friend to me; more of a big brother.

I promise to be stronger!

Different?

Do I look different in this photo as compare to others?

Transition

It's only a few more weeks till my 23rd birthday. The 22 year old me is now in the stage of reflection.

Reflecting on all the changes that happen during the past 1 yr...

1) I stop staying in hall and start travelling to school everyday.
2) I enjoyed my FYP thoroughly with xiaoai and always remembering the days which we do crazy things in the lab.
3) We started celebrating each others' (as in my classmates) birthday. Though some really anti-social ones decided to totally ignore our kind invitations later.
4) I graduated from NTU which I remembered my FOC was like only yesterday. Talking about FOC, my favourite among so many years of camps is definitely my HALL FOC!!! I think it's because of you, MEIYING!!! You really made the camp super enjoyable though we are still not close during that period of time.
5) I started working :(((
6) I started to know that money is hard to earn and no matter how much I try to save, I still have no money at the end of the month.

and the list will go on and on......

I know it's just part of life to meet up with changes. But then, I can't seem to be able to cope well with the changes around me now. The environment, the people, EVERYTHING!!! I'm just confuse and I seriously need to spend time alone to sort out everything.

My biggest dream now is to lie on my bed,

cry out my whole heart,
cry till I'm tired,
cry till I fall to alsleep,

and everything just sort out by themselves and get better!

I'm fine so don't worry about me. Just finding the peace within me. Striking the balance.

If it's something you want to say, there's no need to ask and you will tell me. If it's something which you don't want to say, no matter how much I ask, you just wont tell me. --> I finally learn it, in a hard way. As least I felt so...

Mood Swing

I'm having a serious mood swing NOW!!!

One moment I was waiting excitied for something to happen. The next moment when it happened, I started to feel pissed.

Updates SOON!!

Met up with my university classmates to celebrate Adrian's birthday. I'll post more photos of the gathering tomorrow? On the day when I'm not feeling so tired and lazy plus have to mood to write.

Some recent update of my life...

Work is still the same. I won't say it's super interesting but I'm definitely trying to learn as much as I can now.

My working hour have changed from 8 to 5 everyday to 8 till 6. But then, I only need to work on alternate saturdays. People who can do maths well will know that I'm actually working more working hours now than before. I hate to say it but then, sometimes no matter how hard I try to struugle away from the norm, I just can't! Since I'm working on alternate saturdays now, I have more time for meet-up.

PS: I still not sure if I should change a job now. Though my working environment may not be the best, but I do have a really really nice colleague. It's really hard to get someone who is willing to teach you and give in to me. I know I can be real childish and stubborn at times. Haa!